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Mini Meltdown
I just wanted to tell you all a little story. I was out doing some much needed Christmas shopping today. Yes it's 40 degrees here in Melbourne today and I decide to shop. What an idiot!!!!! But I have been unwell and unmotivated to shop this last week because of this damn annoying cold. I think it's okay and then it seems to freshen up again and I'm sore from coughing and my nose is crusty. Arhhhhh, you know the deal with colds. But back to shopping. I had picked up some presents and I was tired and my feet hurt so I sat down to lunch. Bought a bottle of water because stupid me left my bottle in my hot car. This all sounds innocent enough doesn't it. Well I thought I'd better have some water as I had not hydrated enough today of all days. But try as I might I couldn't get the top off the bottle. I sat there trying for a good five minutes then I got really emotional and couldn't stop myself from crying. I had to retreat into the ladies to calm myself down. Talk about melt down. Over a water bottle. Is this silly or what?
Ladies those of you who are just starting on this journey take heart. It's okay to have a meltdown every now and again. It's all part of the process and I am not beating myself up about it but I just wish I wasn't in the middle of a crowded food hall at a major shopping centre LOL
How embarrassing!
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- Yes it does take a while before you are able to roll over. I think it took me about a month. I found that if I put a pillow lengthwise along my side and one on my other side under my shoulder and hip, I could ease over a bit onto my opposite hip and shoulder. Kind of at a 45 degree angle. If this makes sense. Helped a bit until I could roll all the way onto my side. I still sleep with a pillow between my knees though. I found it help ease the pressure on my tummy when my leg is elevated a bit. Only early days for you Paula but it will come. And it's sooo good :) I'm going to try and get some sleep again now and I hope you can too. So nighty night. Janey xxx
- At least it's not quite as late for me in Qld. Keep thinking I will head to bed but have been having trouble sleeping since my surgery. Not much of a back sleeper. How long until you lay on your side to sleep again? I seem to wake frequently too. Have gradually downsized my pillow pile, only two under my head/shoulders and one under my knees so each night getting more comfortable. Sorry to go off on a tangent on your post. Paula :)
- Night owls again hey. I am soooo wide awake at the mo. Thought I would go to sleep pretty easily after a long day. But as soon as I turned out the light, my mind clicked on and I can't sleep. Laid here for about an hour and gave in and turned the light back on. Oh well :)
- So glad. Paula :)
- Yeah. Had a good day today even having Herceptin. My sister comes with me now and we have a great old chin wag and 'do lunch'. Second day 'going topless' and I felt good :) Janey xxx
- I think I might use that. "Going topless". That's classic :)
- I am so glad I posted about my 'episode' and found I'm not the only one who has these uncontrollable blubbers. I must say I have always been a bit of a softy. You know, cry at TV adverts and stuff! Well if we are a little more sensitive than before, perhaps that's not a bad thing. Shows our souls I think. Yep we are not invisible that's for sure. Hugs back to you Janey xxx
- Thank you Anna. A friend of mine is a Physiologist and she suggested I do some Mindfulness meditation. We weren't having a sessions as such, just a chat with a cuppa and I happened to mention I was having some mood swings possibly from menopause. I have a DVD given to me from the BCN at Peter Mac on Mindfulness and Relaxation but have never viewed it. Perhaps I will google ACT and watch that DVD :) Janey xxx
For me mini meltdown watching the group of Xmas carol singers sing and howling into my coffee las Saturday. We are not invincible. Love adean xxx and a hug and tearsx
- 54 is a mere spring chicken. I am 51. Was 47 first time I was bald and 49 next time. Everyone said my grey hair was lovely, and it was, but made me look 67!!!! Hope today is a good day :) Paula x
