I have finally gotten a good psychologist I have been regularly seeing. Not going to help is the gov't decreasing the 20 subsidised appointments back to 10 in the New Year. She is so good I think I wouldn't mind paying for the extra appointments if I can. I should have been seeing someone waaay back when I was a kid but at least I am getting help now.
The breast cancer saga was just the straw that broke the camels back and I should have asked for help then but I didn't. Well, we didn't have any psychologist here at the time so years down the track I am finally getting help. My mental health team are not confident that I will ever work again however they are confident that with help I should be able to live a happy sedate life.
I have applied to disability but as usual it's not a fast thing and I have another interview in the New Year. Praying I don't have a panic attack in the middle of the thing as its so embarassing!
My heart was fairly settled and meds working until I visited my mum (who has the same Atrial Fibrillation as me) in hospital. The whole, I've been down every corridor in treatment there was so alarming and I thought I would faint but I got through it.
Wouldn't you know it, that night while I was asleep and no control on my mind, the Atrial Fibrillation came back. I gave it a few hours but my heart refused to go back in to rhythm so I did what the Cardiologist said to do and took another heart pill. Then I had to sit up for an hour or so to make sure it didn't actually stop my heart but it did pull the racing part down and I went to bed again. Sometime in the couple of hours left in the night my heart went back into rhythm thank goodness! I need to stay away from stressful situations.
Tentatively our house is sold. Just waiting for it to go unconditional on contract. I will have to leave my lovely beach front house and go and live somewhere else. We didn't get what we wanted in price but we cannot sustain the $2,600 in interest payments on the loan either and we need to get out of that debt. There is a tiny possiblity that we can buy with the proceeds a house outright without a loan but prices on everyone elses have gone up so we will probably need to get a small loan to complete a purchase. My sons will be going on any purchase agreement and/or borrowing with us just in case hubby becomes unbalanced again.
Good news! My breast scan came back negative for cancer! I think a positive one would have finished me lol.