SO sorry you've been let down by some friends & your husband @christine_m xx Sadly, it happens to a lot of us and can be very upsetting - as they often 'say' they will be there for you ..... but disappear :(
Sometimes they feel a tad 'threatened' as they may think it may also happen to them - and don't know what to say, so they say nothing, which hurts.
You'll get lots of support here xx.
Definitely book in to see a counsellor to give you coping mechanisms - if you are older, you can get a subsidised or bulk billed 'care plan' to include the sessions - and keeping busy, doing what you LOVE doing, should help keep the demons away (as the brain goes off on a tangent!)
Feel free to fill us in on your story so far ...
take care