Emotions

Hey @Sarnicad,

Sounds familiar.  Once I finished being  a babbling mess, I was just pissed off with the situation as well.  I actually think it helped somewhat.
A friend had given me a t shirt which said "Fuck you chemo you hit like a bitch"  LOL. She said I was to wear it for treatment. 
 I never wore it but those words were in my head every time I walked through the door.  Gave me a giggle anyways.
Keep on trucking lovely.  You'll get it done.  xoxo

OMG me too!  I don’t think there isn’t an emotion I’ve ridden in the last week since chemo started plus some beautiful side effects that had me doubting everything. I don’t do sick well I do major sick even worse. My head is a mess I’ve tried a couple of mediation things that had me wanting to rip my own ears off. Generally feeling blah, have sooked bad to the nurses, Monday I was thinking how in hell am I going to be able to do this but today I’m slightly more optimistic (read feeling less unwell physically). Still ranting against it all in my head - how could I be sick I felt fine but now I’m having treatment I feel shit. Anxious about my ability to do this out of control hate having to pace myself. Generally not accepting my lot, which of course messes with my head some more

Ooh what a good idea @Sister! Doing it.

@kezmusc What you've said reminds me of what a friend (a psychologist) does.  She has a special album of photos on her phone as a "happy place" when she needs it.  I keep meaning to do something similar.

@Vangirl your so right, it is a rollercoaster of emotions. Thanks for the tips lovely xxx

During chemo it was definitely a rollercoaster ride of feelings for me. Some days I was fine, some I would wake up and cry immediately. Go easy on yourself and if you can access counseling, do it, would be my advice. Counseling was offered to me through the hospital (St Vincent's Melbourne) and has been a great help to me. 

Hey @kezmusc such lovely ideas.. today is a new day and the sun is shining   xx
Trikki2 

Hey @Trikki2,

Absolutely normal. Hopefully you can relax a bit as treatment goes on.  I found that  once I got into a routine of knowing the cycle of the treatment and realised that I could still function quite ok on most days the stress lessened and you become a bit more chilled about it.  Just another day at the office so to speak.

I found keeping as busy as I physically could was really useful and distracted my brain from constantly thinking about treatment and BC.

I also took a lot of photos of anything fun we did along the way. Days out, beautiful sunrises, parties, family trips etc.

 That way when you look back you can see all the good things you did in amongst the not so good. This was really beneficial. Instead of just looking back and going well that was a shit time. I could see how many good days were in there. Made me feel better about it and it gives you a good sense of strength when you can reflect on "Hey, look at everything I did while going through that"

Every body deals with things in different ways.  You'll find your groove lovely.

Keep on poking along and the end will appear sooner than you think.

All the best  xoxoxox

Next time someone says 'What can I do?" (and geeze that's an annoying question) you know what to say!

Michele
Yes your right only we understand. People keep asking what can i do? Nothing you can do only we can do it but i appreciate them being there. My lesson is to take one day at a time. Triky to learn but im trying.  
Thanks lovelyxxxx