It’s a remarkable thing isn’t it - when you realise that you’re not going to die - yet, at any rate. Your whole attitude perks up! Now it’s about ‘how do I live well - or as well as possible - with whatever the fall out is’. And many of us also felt oddly more optimistic about that too. While I have significantly amended my ‘fear the worst, then anything else is better’ attitude over the last seven years, mainly because it gave me such unnecessary and unwarranted grief, there is some small benefit in getting it out of the way early! Best wishes.