Who says we have to be positive all the time? We have the right to crack the s***s every once in a while. God how I hated it when people said "be 'positive' and you will beat this". Bulldust. Being positive doesn't have anything to do with curing cancer, if it did it would have been the cheapest easiest fix around and they'd be booking us into club meds and yoga sanctuaries rather than operating theatres and chemo units. While I am so sorry you have to go through this, I loved your post and felt like this forum was your own punching bag. Punch away Gayle. PUNCH, PUNCH, PUNCH. Get it out. I'll even hold the bag for you. We can take it and hopefully it will make you feel a bit better, even if only for a little while...
HUGS
Nadine
Thankyou sweetheart!! ... you punch on also ;) xxxx