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Chevvy's avatar
Chevvy
Member
3 years ago

Round 2 ??

Well, here we are again, and so bloody soon, who’d have thought it . In 2020 was diagnosed, had treatment, then started tamoxifen… well they can bash that crap up their jacksy… 2 years of side effects and cancers back anyways… all those joint aches, anxiety, insomnia , and let’s not forget the healthy eating, giving up smoking, making better lifestyle choices, less drinking… oh my goodness gracious..  missed 2 years of partying hard all for nothing, am sooooo not impressed. Jack Daniels distillery rang me, where are you they said, we miss your financial contribution to our alcohol sales… getting healthy after breast cancer I told them 🤣🤣, trying to do all I can so the bastard disease doesn’t come back… huh… maybe if I’d have stayed drinking I’d have killed those mongrel cancer cells instead cause in 2 years had 3 melanomas, 1 full face skin cancer pd treatment and now going in for the other boob. Fair diddly dinkum sometimes life is just not playing the game how I’d like… can I roll the dice again, can I play a different game .. 😝.. 
terror, fear, anger. … I didn’t buy a ticket to get on this roller coaster again, someone dismantle the bloody track … 
  • Zoffiel's avatar
    Zoffiel
    Member
    3 years ago
    Gargh!!!
    I've done the whole shitfull business twice. It doesn't get any easier.
    Well, maybe that's not quite true. You know the ropes and have a handle on the language. That should make things less stressful. Except it doesn't.
    Hang in there. Drink the JD. Give yourself a break. Everyone you are supporting will be left hanging if this pulls you down, so they can do without you every once in a while if you need time for yourself.
    It's all so fucking disappointing. Mxx
  • Julez1958's avatar
    Julez1958
    Member
    3 years ago
    Bugger bugger bugger!
    life is a bitch that’s for sure.
    please accept my virtual hugs  and best wishes that you will get through this.
    Take care🌺


  • arpie's avatar
    arpie
    Member
    3 years ago
    OMG, @Chevvy - as Cath says - that REALLY SUCKS.  I am so sorry to hear of the kids' dad's situation too - I know exactly how hard that is  xx

    Lots of BIG HUGS coming your way xx   I invested in plenty of Bundy Rum over the last 8 weeks ..... so totally understand you renewing your friendship with Jack Daniels! xx.  

    You are one super strong, tough lady - to be so concerned for everyone else ahead of yourself, whilst you've just received this recurrence news - so you are allowed to have as many sooky moments as you need.)  xx  But please, make sure that you chat with the team here or a psychologist to help you with appropriate coping mechanisms to help you thru all this xx.  Your work is obviously very stressful too - but right now - you need to look after YOU first, so that you can then get back to help them, later on. xx

    Enjoy the Big hugs coming from hubby tomorrow too (and the rest of the family as they learn the news too) xx

    take care and all the best xx
  • Chevvy's avatar
    Chevvy
    Member
    3 years ago
    Hi Cath… omgoodness we talked ages ago … how are you going with the melanoma side of things  luv… I hope your doing ok and no more to date, bc is bad enough to deal with without throwing in some melanoma along the way, hey. 
    So, how am I doing you ask . Shit, I’m falling apart at the seams today, lol 🤣.. had my 2 year mammogram/ultrasound just  yesterday, appt was booked for 3 weeks time to see oncologist for results and standard checkup, got the call at work this morning that they want to see me immediately, immediately being Wednesday 8.15am so gotta try and stay sane thru the weekend.. straight away new that was all bad.. then as I’m in the industry accessed my results and thought “buggar and shit that just sux”… continued working for 3 more hours (had an assessment to do on a vulnerable person who needed support) somehow got thru it … then came home poured myself a very very strong bourbon lol … all I can think off is how this is going to impact those around me. My kids are going to be devastated that mums doing this again, I feel like I’ve left them down putting them through this worry a second time ( their father is presently receiving end of life care for advanced melanoma cancer), so this is not ideal to have to tell them, the worry on my poor hubby, my poor mum is 80 and had only just recovered emotionally and psychologically from both my sister and I having bc ,hearing mines back is going to really really have a negative impact on her mental health.. and my work, I have so many vulnerable people I look after and for them to have me intermittently out of action again is really detrimental to their care plan. It just really bloody sucks that it’s going to affect so many people again in so many ways… so… for today, I’m going to make friends with Jack Daniels again 🤣, I’m going to have my little sooky La La moment, lol… then I guess tomorrow when hubby gets back home (he works away), I’m going to pick myself up, put my big girl panties back on, and say “f#%k you” to cancer yet again 👍
    (a hug right now wouldn’t go astray tho 🤣🤣) 👍
  • Cath62's avatar
    Cath62
    Member
    3 years ago
    Oh @Chevvy, that just sucks! I can think of a few orher choice words too. I would be pissed off too. Do you know the pathology yet or next steps?

    Bloody hell I was diagnosed in 2020 too, surgery, chemo, radium and tamoxifen. That tamoxifen didn't agree with me. Just started Letrozole and 4 days in feel side effects but to find out that have bc in the other boob would just do my head in. In that last 2 yrs I too had a melanoma. It's my 4th not too mention 40 odd biopsies for abnormal moles. I feel someone could play snakes and ladders on my body with my scars.

    I think you are brave just writing about it. How can well all support you? Definitely here to listen and help in anyway we can. Sending positive vibes to you.