Round 2 ??

So, how am I doing you ask . Shit, I’m falling apart at the seams today, lol 🤣.. had my 2 year mammogram/ultrasound just  yesterday, appt was booked for 3 weeks time to see oncologist for results and standard checkup, got the call at work this morning that they want to see me immediately, immediately being Wednesday 8.15am so gotta try and stay sane thru the weekend.. straight away new that was all bad.. then as I’m in the industry accessed my results and thought “buggar and shit that just sux”… continued working for 3 more hours (had an assessment to do on a vulnerable person who needed support) somehow got thru it … then came home poured myself a very very strong bourbon lol … all I can think off is how this is going to impact those around me. My kids are going to be devastated that mums doing this again, I feel like I’ve left them down putting them through this worry a second time ( their father is presently receiving end of life care for advanced melanoma cancer), so this is not ideal to have to tell them, the worry on my poor hubby, my poor mum is 80 and had only just recovered emotionally and psychologically from both my sister and I having bc ,hearing mines back is going to really really have a negative impact on her mental health.. and my work, I have so many vulnerable people I look after and for them to have me intermittently out of action again is really detrimental to their care plan. It just really bloody sucks that it’s going to affect so many people again in so many ways… so… for today, I’m going to make friends with Jack Daniels again 🤣, I’m going to have my little sooky La La moment, lol… then I guess tomorrow when hubby gets back home (he works away), I’m going to pick myself up, put my big girl panties back on, and say “f#%k you” to cancer yet again 👍
(a hug right now wouldn’t go astray tho 🤣🤣) 👍