Well, here we are again, and so bloody soon, who’d have thought it . In 2020 was diagnosed, had treatment, then started tamoxifen… well they can bash that crap up their jacksy… 2 years of side effects and cancers back anyways… all those joint aches, anxiety, insomnia , and let’s not forget the healthy eating, giving up smoking, making better lifestyle choices, less drinking… oh my goodness gracious.. missed 2 years of partying hard all for nothing, am sooooo not impressed. Jack Daniels distillery rang me, where are you they said, we miss your financial contribution to our alcohol sales… getting healthy after breast cancer I told them 🤣🤣, trying to do all I can so the bastard disease doesn’t come back… huh… maybe if I’d have stayed drinking I’d have killed those mongrel cancer cells instead cause in 2 years had 3 melanomas, 1 full face skin cancer pd treatment and now going in for the other boob. Fair diddly dinkum sometimes life is just not playing the game how I’d like… can I roll the dice again, can I play a different game .. 😝.. terror, fear, anger. … I didn’t buy a ticket to get on this roller coaster again, someone dismantle the bloody track …

Gargh!!!I've done the whole shitfull business twice. It doesn't get any easier.Well, maybe that's not quite true. You know the ropes and have a handle on the language. That should make things less stressful. Except it doesn't.Hang in there. Drink the JD. Give yourself a break. Everyone you are supporting will be left hanging if this pulls you down, so they can do without you every once in a while if you need time for yourself.It's all so fucking disappointing. Mxx

Oh @Chevvy, that just sucks! I can think of a few orher choice words too. I would be pissed off too. Do you know the pathology yet or next steps?Bloody hell I was diagnosed in 2020 too, surgery, chemo, radium and tamoxifen. That tamoxifen didn't agree with me. Just started Letrozole and 4 days in feel side effects but to find out that have bc in the other boob would just do my head in. In that last 2 yrs I too had a melanoma. It's my 4th not too mention 40 odd biopsies for abnormal moles. I feel someone could play snakes and ladders on my body with my scars.I think you are brave just writing about it. How can well all support you? Definitely here to listen and help in anyway we can. Sending positive vibes to you.

Hi Cath… omgoodness we talked ages ago … how are you going with the melanoma side of things luv… I hope your doing ok and no more to date, bc is bad enough to deal with without throwing in some melanoma along the way, hey. So, how am I doing you ask . Shit, I’m falling apart at the seams today, lol 🤣.. had my 2 year mammogram/ultrasound just yesterday, appt was booked for 3 weeks time to see oncologist for results and standard checkup, got the call at work this morning that they want to see me immediately, immediately being Wednesday 8.15am so gotta try and stay sane thru the weekend.. straight away new that was all bad.. then as I’m in the industry accessed my results and thought “buggar and shit that just sux”… continued working for 3 more hours (had an assessment to do on a vulnerable person who needed support) somehow got thru it … then came home poured myself a very very strong bourbon lol … all I can think off is how this is going to impact those around me. My kids are going to be devastated that mums doing this again, I feel like I’ve left them down putting them through this worry a second time ( their father is presently receiving end of life care for advanced melanoma cancer), so this is not ideal to have to tell them, the worry on my poor hubby, my poor mum is 80 and had only just recovered emotionally and psychologically from both my sister and I having bc ,hearing mines back is going to really really have a negative impact on her mental health.. and my work, I have so many vulnerable people I look after and for them to have me intermittently out of action again is really detrimental to their care plan. It just really bloody sucks that it’s going to affect so many people again in so many ways… so… for today, I’m going to make friends with Jack Daniels again 🤣, I’m going to have my little sooky La La moment, lol… then I guess tomorrow when hubby gets back home (he works away), I’m going to pick myself up, put my big girl panties back on, and say “f#%k you” to cancer yet again 👍(a hug right now wouldn’t go astray tho 🤣🤣) 👍

OMG, @Chevvy - as Cath says - that REALLY SUCKS. I am so sorry to hear of the kids' dad's situation too - I know exactly how hard that is xxLots of BIG HUGS coming your way xx I invested in plenty of Bundy Rum over the last 8 weeks ..... so totally understand you renewing your friendship with Jack Daniels! xx. You are one super strong, tough lady - to be so concerned for everyone else ahead of yourself, whilst you've just received this recurrence news - so you are allowed to have as many sooky moments as you need.) xx But please, make sure that you chat with the team here or a psychologist to help you with appropriate coping mechanisms to help you thru all this xx. Your work is obviously very stressful too - but right now - you need to look after YOU first, so that you can then get back to help them, later on. xxEnjoy the Big hugs coming from hubby tomorrow too (and the rest of the family as they learn the news too) xxtake care and all the best xx

Bugger bugger bugger!life is a bitch that’s for sure.please accept my virtual hugs and best wishes that you will get through this.Take care🌺

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15 Replies

Afraser
Member
3 years ago
Fewer places to come back to. Absolute guarantees are hard to come by and bad luck can strike anywhere but after a mastectomy, so far (10 years) so good. Without the mastectomy I might not have had ten years. We’d all like a better deal - cured for life would be excellent, but we’re not there yet. But my trade was worth it for me. It’s still a really personal decision.
Chevvy
Member
3 years ago
Well buggar… what pray tell is the point of masectomy if it can still come back… cancer is so shit
Blossom1961
Member
3 years ago
Mine came back in the lymph nodes in the chest wall.
Chevvy
Member
3 years ago
Bloody hell… that is not good to hear, that’s shit sucky for you after going through all that … I hope your doing ok now and on the journey to recovery.. can I ask , being that they’re telling me I need a masectomy… where and how does the bc come back if you have your boob off… not that I have much choice I’m told but it certainly doesn’t give me confidence it’s worth loosing it…
Lyn
Member
3 years ago
Sending big hugs to all in Round2??, to say I wasn’t impressed to join this team last October is also an understatement. Diagnosed in 2008 mastectomy, reconstruction & 5 years Tamoxifen. Same breast this time, with some skill from the surgeon the reconstruction remains almost intact.
Blossom1961
Member
3 years ago
@Chevvy. Sending you big hugs. My first diagnosis was 2018 and it came back again this year in lymph nodes and bones. Just finished taxol and now on a targetted therapy regime for life. At least I now am being closely monitored. That second diagnosis was a shock so I definitely know the feeling. I had a BC nurse ring me to say how bad it looked and then refused to let me know the results. I kinda lost it at that and sacked her from my team. Wishing you all the best and remember to think about you.
Cath62
Member
3 years ago
Good you had a better day @Chevvy. That's how this rolls doesn't it.

You asked about my melanoma. I have not found anymore yet. I get checked every 6 months. The last Melanoma was on my shoulder. When they cut it out they didn't get a big enough margin so I had to go under the knife again. That was in January this yr. The last skin check was ok. Back to see the skin guy in November.

I hope today is a good day for you. Sending love and a big hug.
MicheleR
Member
3 years ago
Hi @Chevvy,

So sorry to hear. I was diagnosed in 2020 also. This is a shit of a disease and has no rhyme or reason. At least you know what to expect. Hoping for you it is small and they can chop the bastard out. Hugs x
Chevvy
Member
3 years ago
Thanku lovely ladies… feeling the luv and hugs… isn’t this site just magical for support and that place to go to where you can release the emotions that perhaps others outside of the BC world don’t quite understand…
could have done without this diagnosis … mind you, could have done hearing the diagnosis before I spent a fortune on hair extensions 3 days ago, lol… chemo will have them falling out my head in no time…
In a better place today with it all… done it before, will just do it again hey… you might just all see me on here venting about it from time to time 🤣🤣… sooooo appreciate all your kind words , your all so beautiful… 😘😘⭐️💐…
Locksley
Member
3 years ago
@Chevvy I am so sorry to hear this. I was also diagnosed in 2020 so for this beast to come back so soon really is the shits as we have gone through so much to get to 2022!. I am sending you positive vibes to get through this again. Definitely have a Jack Daniels if you want one. I still have a drink from time to time. It helps with all the aches and pains.