Hi @Silverlining, yep it's hard to find any silver linings when you are going through this. It's ok to cry. It's okay to feel overwhelmed. It's ok to feel sad. I found it helpful to let all these feelings come to me, touch me, just not move in and stay forever. It's not good to let it all dam up - it has to come out at some point! Quite honestly I was awful mid chemo, and I just allowed myself to wallow it it for a while ...and you know by not fighting these feelings and letting them happen I think helped me be stronger out the other end. Big massive hugs, we are here for you. Bec xx