@Silverlining When I was at my lowest ebb I rang the Cancer Council who have a service called Cancer Connect. Within 3 days I had a phone call from a lovely lady interstate who had been thru the same as me and came thru it - hearing her voice meant the world to me as I began to realise the world had not ended and that I too would get thru it and life would continue.Also I connected with a local bc group - the best thing about it was to know I was not alone and to see these women carrying on their normal lives in my town like shopping at the supermarket means a lot to me.You need to know you are not alone there are many of us and that you will get thru this as many have before you .Keep posting on this blog as much support and wisdom will flow to you - there is always someone online across the day and you can say things things here that you may not be able to in your everyday life as we understand a bit more.As has been said already take one day at a time - there is light in the tunnel as well as at the end of it.