Hi @submarine - welcome to a group that we all hope did not need to exist but is here to help us all. I too had never joined a forum and wished that there was something similar when I was initially diagnosed in 2003 - also with 2 little boys. Can totally understand how overwhelming, shocked, angry, fearful you may feel - all in 1 day sometimes ! It is ok to have all or some or none of these feelings and if we can provide some sort of sounding board then that's what the forum is for. My very best wishes to you and your gorgeous little boys. Sheryl xxx :)