@Blackkitty25 I remember saying to myself (and others) at the time that "it is what it is". Nothing will change what is there other than finding out about it and embarking on treatment if needed. I went to an old friends get-together that weekend and didn't remember any of it - worried my friends too as they knew I was "off" but didn't know why. It's a shit time, only surpassed by getting the wrong diagnosis and waiting for treatment to start. Let us know how you go - fingers crossed that it's nothing but we'll be here if you need us.