Hi @RenataW I echo all the comments above.
You’re a real star for being able to express your feelings and for speaking up.
I found the phase of diagnosis you’re in to be super tough when I was diagnosed 12 months ago and in my case, I felt impatient and powerless.
It’s an unwelcome disease but I hope once you’re involved in planning your treatment the practical progress will be a comfort to you.
You’ll find a lot of people on the network recommend writing down what you have been told in a journal.
Looking back I wished I had set up a small group on my messaging (WhatsApp) so I didn’t have to send so many individual texts. I felt like I wanted to be more present with my immediate family as we processed each test result or piece of news.
Wishing you the best and some calming and peaceful moments over the next few weeks of tests.