Hi @Emfitz,
Welcome to the forum lovely. I was never a blog/forum kinda gal either. I did stalk the pages for about 8 months before I posted.
No one, no matter how supportive, can understand exactly how you are feeling like someone who has been there or is going through the same rollercoaster ride.
I was a little older than you at diagnoses.(45) with 5 teens/young adults at home at the time. Makes for a lot of love and a lot of group tears.
You are never alone on here no matter what time of the day or night. Check out the night howls thread if it is 3am, guarantee you wont be the only one awake.
We all "get it" and will walk every step of the way with you if you want.
All the best sweet.
xoxoxoxoxoxo