Hey Mimca, welcome to our group and glad you have found us. Your third round hey, that must be tough. I don't know how some of these beautiful ladies do it but they do. Have you seeked help for your panic attacks as you don't need to live with those as well as all the other stuff you have had to deal with. Amaziing how big strong marcho men can't cope with our illness. I am sure you would be there for them no matter what. That is not fair. You don't have to put on a brave face to protect everyone else because you are the one that needs protecting now and needs love and support so let people know how you are feeling. You do not have to do this alone. You have found some lovely pink sisters that are here for you every step of the way. You have reached out for us so reach out to your family and friends and lean on them as well. It is hard living on your own but I am glad you can take advantage of some of the good things in life like walking and music and looking after yourself. You need to seek help with your anxiety and I am sure that will help you feel better. You can connect with other pink sisters through this site by joining a support group. Click on this link
http://www.bcna.org.au/membergroup/search and it will help you find support groups in your area.Thinking of you and wishing you well and the strength to keep brave. Good luck with seeking help and reaching out. We are here for you for a chat, to vent, to cry anytime you need us.Lots of love,Mich xoxoxo