Leisa,don't ever delete your blog posts.You can write whatever you like and how much you like on here,and no one will judge you.You have had such a rough time of things,and when I read stories like yours,I am in awe of your strength,although I guess you don't feel that way.I know that lots of other ladies will come on here to support and help you.Just a couple of weeks ago,a lady who is pregnant,posted a blog on here about her cancer.
You say you have no idea what to do anymore,and no one would expect you to feel differently,however I think that this network of FANTASTIC ladies,is going to be here for you,each and every day,24/7.I As you said,you are not alone,and with a ton of support,I believe you will do what you need to do.You have already gone through so much more than a lot of us. I am sending you the biggest cyber hug that I can,and wish you all the best.I hope to see more long blog posts from you! xoxoxoRobyn.ps.where do you live Leisa.