@Cyhth6 @socoda.@iserbrown and anyone else who has read my post .My sincere apologies if I have caused distress by my comment - the relief I felt discovering this site when I felt lost and hopeless - it was a lifeline at a very low point. I did not mean to suggest anyone was being insensitive - to know you were all there and managing your lives as well as the practical guidance pulled me out of a dark hole I did not know how to get out of by myself. I am constantly astounded by this community - the support shown and acceptance of each other is quite special.