You are so soon out of treatment. I finished trestment in march and for a while things were quite stormy. Its a massive thing to process and whilst partners go through it with you its not the same experience. I saw a psychologist and feeling less ragey. Id recommend that first. Whatever you feel is what you feel but its the extreme end right now. Life settles a bit but ive come to realise its not cataclismic but takes maybe upward of a year to manage the emotions and you need to take it bit by bit. Others will not understand the black and whiteness of your thoughts. This is probably normal. For me it was.