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Ann58
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25 days ago

disassociation?

my surgery was cancelled for next Wednesday 12th til 26th

last week I felt or knew that I wouldn’t be having surgery next week. 
now it’s been moved, I can’t even imagine it happening in two weeks.

i don’t know if I’m in denial or disassociating. It doesn’t seem real. As if it’s happening to someone else. 
Has anyone else had this experience?

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  • Totally understandable! Even immediately after surgery it didn’t feel quite real, and I have a friend who had early stage bowel cancer who said the same thing. I think we go into a type of survival mode where we are just focused on getting through and it all feels a bit surreal. It wasn’t until about two weeks after surgery that it really sunk in for me and I have been quite emotional ever since (I am now 5 weeks post surgery). On one level you know what’s going on, but until you have gone through it you don’t know what it’s going to feel like so it’s hard to imagine. And it’s natural to want to pretend it isn’t real even though you know it is. 

  • This happen with my surgery they gave me a date  then rescheduled 2 weeks later, l  then starting thinking all kinds of thoughts. I even convinced myself l really did not need surgery because,  the team  had push mine to a later date so, maybe they made a mistake. After l settled a bit l realised  the delay gave me time to  take in the information and give me a little more time to digest it as, before l was scattered, in my thinking and maybe freaking out about fear of the unknown..  hang in there  good thoughts are with you 👍🌸

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      Ann58
      Member

      Thankyou Collette! 
      I have decided to use these two weeks to get back on track with my lchf way of eating & up my water intake 💙

      I also had myself thinking that I didn’t need the surgery 😂

  • Christina_BCNA's avatar
    Christina_BCNA
    Community Manager

    Hi Ann58​ , I'm sorry your surgery has been postponed. Having yourself mentally prepared for one date and then having it moved can be incredibly unsettling. Be gentle with yourself over the next couple of weeks. There is no right or wrong way to feel, and everything you're experiencing sounds like a very normal response to a difficult situation.

    If you'd like to talk things through, please don't hesitate to give us a call. Sometimes chatting with someone who understands can really help when your thoughts are racing or things don't feel quite real. Wishing you lots of strength for the wait ahead, and hoping your surgery goes ahead smoothly on the 26th. We're here for you. 🌸