Contemplating the future!

Hi @KatherineH  It's been a year since I was diagnosed and had surgery.  I was a mum at home before bc and am now contemplating entering the workforce again. I'm 47. My mind feels like it's in the right place but my body isn't.  I just wanted to move on, move forward and put bc behind me. It's going to be a longer, slower process and I'm feeling a little useless as my body is going through some side effects from chemo, radiation and now hormone supressing therapy, as well as prior thyroid issues.  So I'm just going to try and be easy on myself.  Still a little lost myself.  Lisha xx

I am retired and have teenagers still at home so pretty busy juggling their stuff. Did feel lost after radiotherapy finished as was intense and busy period from initial diagnosis to surgeries and then radiotherapy. Fell in a bit of a hole afterwards partially as very tired but luckily had a couple of friends who got me going again looking outwards esp for fellow bc people. Found this site , a local bc support group and a some help thru Cancer Council to connect with someone who had been thru similar. Mainly I needed to know my life was not over by seeing and hearing from other bc ladies.I do a bit of volunteer work and make a point to get out and about for a cuppa with people.Not sure if answers your question but basically picked up life pre bc and added exercise and new people who had gone thru bc too. Because of all the treatment have finally recognised I need to take things more slowlyplus I do not need to be quite as busy as am a retiree  - learning to prioritise better might be a good outcome from the bc experience for me . All the best - always someone happy to chat and share XO

We are all different. Our diagnoses are different, treatment can be different and what helps us along will be different too. So while it's useful to know what other people have done, following your strongly felt instincts is pretty good too. My instincts said keep doing what you are doing. I went back to work after surgery (mastectomy, no reconstruction) and stayed working through chemo and herceptin. I am still on hormonal treatment. I had no nausea and fatigue from chemo and though I had other side effects, they didn't affect my working. I changed job a year later, when I felt comfortable that I was over active treatment and sure about making a change. It's not a model, just one person's story. Working kept me grounded, but it doesn't help everyone. Don't rush, you'll know what's best for you when you get there, best wishes.

I was back at work too after mastectomy & lump node clearance. I had 10 days off. Worked through chemo & radio but it is only now I feel like I want to give up & have a rest. It kept me distracted through treatment but some people like to take that time to recover.  Take it easy & find something you enjoy doing, best of luck!

Over and over again I have been told post treatment is a difficult period. I wonder whether it is the build up of chemicals in our bodies and the effects of radiation.  My radiation oncolgist told me it would take a while to be clear of fatigue and side effects.
 My psychologist only saw her briefly stated she has many patients coming post cancer it is common to get down. Finally my naturopath said post cancer now was the time for healing and restoring the body. 
I am now 5 months post treatment my energy levels are picking up but am I back to normal.....not yet 
I know we are all different but consistently on this site most of us take a while to become whole again.  WE do eventually.

I worked right through my first BC in 2006. Chemo, double tit lopping and retreads. It was hard going but I was on a contract at work, was a sole parent and couldn't bear the thought of losing my job. I was 43.

I was made redundant 6 weeks before my recurrence was finally diagnosed in August last year. I had just just enrolled in an Advanced Diploma of Management and HR and had two really good job offers the week the shit hit the fan. Here's me thinking I had 15 years redundancy pay in the bank and I was walking into an $80k a year job and everything was going to be peachy. No.

I was off work and self supporting until 6 weeks ago when I received an offer to work part time from home. It's been a godsend but I'm going to have to up the ante and get more work before my savings are completely depleted. I've finished my studies, which kept me sane through 10 months of surgery, surgery, more surgery, chemo and rads.

 Ive also been working with a woman who is writing a local history and have the manuscript ready to go to the printers . I was so sick and damaged there was no way I could have held a job but I guess I've managed to achieve something in what was other wise a write off period of my life

I'm getting my portacath out next week and am going on a 4 day retreat at the Otis foundation house at Redesdale the week after. Then that's it, I'm going to have to draw a line under the whole shitfight.

I've enrolled in the Batchelor subjects so will finally have a degree at 56. My new boss has offered me some more training so I can move up in her business which is a bit daunting but necessary if I want to keep the lights on and the wheels turning.

My body is recovering, my brain is starting to work again and some of my confidence is returning but this stuff really knocks you around. I'm a tough chicky but the last 12 months has tested me to my  limits. I used to joke that what doesn't kill you makes you stranger, now I feel it just waits for a while then comes back and has another go. I'll just have to deal with that went it happens, for now I want my life back. Marg. Xx

I am a self employed Dog Groomer with my own business (sole trader, no employees) so I have been working a little when I can through the last 7 months of treatment.
Fortunately I have been running for 17 years and have a loyal group of clients who are prepared to work around me and a husband with a reasonably well paying job and a flexible employer.
I was not able to work much during chemo, especially as I spent part of the time in hospital, and have had two operations so far.
I am 57.
We can't afford for me not to work, at least part time, if we want to continue with the lifestyle we are accustomed to and support my horse and my husband's travel aspirations.

I have learnt through all this that I was not focussed enough in what was good for me, and put the business first too much.
I am not trained for much else and live in a high unemployment region, so doubt that I will consider changing vocation, but I believe many people reassess what they want to do with their lives after cancer treatment and go a completely different direction.
I will just cut back a little on my work load, not be pressured into accepting more each day than I can manage and will be choosier about who I accept.
I will also schedule in a proper lunch time and time for regular exercise and catching up with friends.

I felt I was cruising slowly before and taking a lot for granted.
Now I feel compelled to get into gear and make things happen.
The goals I had for my riding, getting fit, getting out and competing, going to events just to enjoy watching them. 
Improving my work / life balance.

Perhaps I feel more urgency now, and a renewed interest in life.
I don't really want to go back completely to what was "normal" before, I want this year to have meant something, and to have had a positive effect on my life in some way.

Good luck finding your answers, they will probably become clearer as you go along. Jennie

@Zoffiel
Oh, Batchelor subjects?  sounds interesting - typo no doubt!  Enjoy the Otis Retreat!

My bc treatment  commenced in January and finished 4 weeks ago . I am 50 and have three teenagers , l had a stressful job , both physically and mentally and a very busy life . Everything has changed for me . I worked post surgery for a couple of weeks and then I had to stop during chemo. I found it debilitating and radiotherapy just exacerbated my side effects and fatigue . I have not worked since and like Katherine , I am really contemplating my life and where to from here . I have decided that I no longer want to live the life I was prior to bc that was so stressful and so busy  . Financially it has been incredibly difficult , watching us go backwards but have decided that my health is more important and my recovery is paramount to future health. At times I feel guilty for not returning to work especially when I hear of others who have continued to work throughout treatment .. no way would I have been able to but I often think if others can shouldn't I ?? . One month post completion and I'm still so so tired . I have joint pains and aches that never existed prior to chemo , I'm just not my old self . I was active fit and healthy !! I feel like it has all taken its toll on my body and wonder when it will recover .l can't see myself returning to my position in the next few months .. is this normal ??  Much time contemplating new careers , much time hoping that I use this experience to make changes to bring peace into my new life . 

I'd just changed jobs before diagnosis,  only been there about 5 months and it was a job I loved with much less stress than my old job. I couldn't work during chemo and it was 7 weeks before I felt ready to try. I initially went back on half time and it took about 8 weeks before I felt I could increase..I did this slowly...going up by 1 hour a day at a time. I sat on 32 hours with a mid week break for 3 months before my last push to full time. It took me 9 months to get there. I am still trying to recover my exercise fitness on top of my work day now so going to do the YWCA encore program again to get me back on the path. Kath x