Contemplating the future!

My bc treatment  commenced in January and finished 4 weeks ago . I am 50 and have three teenagers , l had a stressful job , both physically and mentally and a very busy life . Everything has changed for me . I worked post surgery for a couple of weeks and then I had to stop during chemo. I found it debilitating and radiotherapy just exacerbated my side effects and fatigue . I have not worked since and like Katherine , I am really contemplating my life and where to from here . I have decided that I no longer want to live the life I was prior to bc that was so stressful and so busy  . Financially it has been incredibly difficult , watching us go backwards but have decided that my health is more important and my recovery is paramount to future health. At times I feel guilty for not returning to work especially when I hear of others who have continued to work throughout treatment .. no way would I have been able to but I often think if others can shouldn't I ?? . One month post completion and I'm still so so tired . I have joint pains and aches that never existed prior to chemo , I'm just not my old self . I was active fit and healthy !! I feel like it has all taken its toll on my body and wonder when it will recover .l can't see myself returning to my position in the next few months .. is this normal ??  Much time contemplating new careers , much time hoping that I use this experience to make changes to bring peace into my new life .