Cancerversary

Well done @Sister and @kmakm on your 2 years clear!  My 2 year diagnosis cancerversary is in 4 weeks today! ..... tho I have had the 'all clear' from the Rad Onc last week (delayed due to the fires) - and now don't see the surgeon til Feb 2020 for the official (hopefully) all clear.

Well said @kezmusc - yep - I knew it was bad news too before I got there ..... I'd already pre-booked an appt (knowing the results would be in the early new year & wanted to make sure I could get in!) So I was out in my kayak & got a call from the GPs office asking me to make an appt - and I told them I already had .... and they apologised for not checking!  So I knew.
I hope your little soap opera settles down soon so you can grab the reins & get back into it full bore again! 

Never a dull moment, eh?  I think I joined BCNA about the same time as my surgery.

I must admit tho, since taking the magic oil - I am no longer as aware of the side effects of my AIs 24/7 and am sleeping much better too, tho occasionally it sneaks thru - so don't be afraid to give it a go.  Back when I started, the aches & pains were really bad - even affecting my ukulele playing & was not much better with the 2nd lot.  I am now on my 3rd lot.  Anyone wanting more info on it - just PM me.

All the best, ladies xxxx

Mine was today!

@Kmakm,

Congrats on ticking off the two years lovely. 
  
It's a bloody hard slog and you sure have been dealt the pointy end of the stick.  I'm never really convinced anyone that says cancer saved me is telling the truth quite honestly. I have yet to meet anyone who says,  Geez I'm so glad I got cancer. 
I feel for you lovely, I really do.
 It certainly sucks that on top of everything else you are now in constant pain.  Medical menopause is just freaking awful but you are not well warned at the start just how hard it can be. I swear, the next person that moves my desk fan is going to end up in one of those hospital beds hehe.

It is something nobody expects isn't it?  You go in presuming to get  through the treatment and then pick up your life as normal (well, I did anyhow). There was no warning pamphlet that said life as you know it has now taken a very sharp left turn. You better have some damn good rebuilding plans.

If there was I am sure we would all have taken much longer to appreciate that day before a whole lot more.  I remember vividly that morning heading to the doctor to get my results.  It's funny how there are things you just know.  I recall shutting the front door then opening it again and looking around my house.  I said to myself, when you walk back in your life will be changed forever.  True story.
If there is any consulation at all I think year two to three was where I made the most progress. (Apart from little soap opera at the moment) I do so hope you find the same. Keep searching for those small moments and hang on to them as best you can sweets.
You have been an absolute legend to so many people on here. Myself included. 
Luv ya. xoxoxo

Dear @Sister and @kmakm, 
I think of you ladies together. In December 2017 I had just found the network after completing radiotherapy following lumpectomy and chemo; all 'kicking off' in May 2017.  In December 2017 and January 2018 you were in the thick of things I think

from jennyss in Western NSW

It is 2 years, @kmakm so a milestone to be relieved about.  

Two years ago today I was diagnosed with breast cancer. It's been two years I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. You guys know the depths to which it takes you. It's no use wishing, but if I had a magic wand I would magic the last two years away.

I'll never be one of the people who says cancer "saved" me. The loss of my breasts, the loss of of my confidence, the major depression, the damage to my hands, the brutal medical menopause and the ongoing side effects of the medication... It's the price you pay for life and I regret none of the treatment decisions I've made, but ye gods it's hard.

My second cancerversary hasn't been as difficult as the first. However I couldn't get to sleep until 2am last night, and today my energy and focus has been very scattered.

Two years ago my life was diverted onto a different path. Along the way I've met some truly wonderful people, made some beautiful new friends, had some great experiences, and made some deep, nurturing connections. I like to think that if I hadn't had cancer I might have done all these things, just differently. I'll never know, but letting go of what I thought my life was going to be is tremendously challenging.

Life knocks us all around. One in two of us will get cancer. One in seven of us women will have breast cancer. I like to think I'm wiser and more empathetic. I'm certainly sadder. And boy am I tired. But it's a milestone, getting to two years without a recurrence, and one I'm very happy to reach.

Thank you all for your support. K xox

@Sister I was trying to turn around and look at the screen when she walked out to compare last ultrasound...but couldn’t cause she had me in a odd position lol

Same with me @hendrix.  When I was called in for the ultrasound, the girl was trying to chat cheerfully to me while I was already planning how to tell the family and what I was going to do about telling them at work.  After the doctor spoke to me and said it was all okay (they couldn't get the previous scans from Breastscreen so she couldn't compare), I burst into tears and the girl who was doing the scans apologised profusely - she knew what I was thinking and that it was probably okay, but she's not allowed to say anything.

Thanks @arpie Yes the waiting is the pits..ugh!! 😊

I make sure I have an ultrasound now, @Hendrix  as I don't trust just having a Mammogram - even the 3D ones  (dense breast tissue doesn't show up tumours on mammograms - tho the 3D are better than the Breastscreen ones) .... so try not to over think it - I call it insurance - I'd rather have both scans done than just the one.

The breast care nurse from the Port Macquarie Cancer Centre gave me my results over the phone (nothing to worry about) and I then had the report printed out by my GP.  Try not to overthink it ... tho the waiting really IS the pits  :(

take care & all the best xxxx