@Kmakm,
Congrats on ticking off the two years lovely.
It's a bloody hard slog and you sure have been dealt the pointy end of the stick. I'm never really convinced anyone that says cancer saved me is telling the truth quite honestly. I have yet to meet anyone who says, Geez I'm so glad I got cancer.
I feel for you lovely, I really do.
It certainly sucks that on top of everything else you are now in constant pain. Medical menopause is just freaking awful but you are not well warned at the start just how hard it can be. I swear, the next person that moves my desk fan is going to end up in one of those hospital beds hehe.
It is something nobody expects isn't it? You go in presuming to get through the treatment and then pick up your life as normal (well, I did anyhow). There was no warning pamphlet that said life as you know it has now taken a very sharp left turn. You better have some damn good rebuilding plans.
If there was I am sure we would all have taken much longer to appreciate that day before a whole lot more. I remember vividly that morning heading to the doctor to get my results. It's funny how there are things you just know. I recall shutting the front door then opening it again and looking around my house. I said to myself, when you walk back in your life will be changed forever. True story.
If there is any consulation at all I think year two to three was where I made the most progress. (Apart from little soap opera at the moment) I do so hope you find the same. Keep searching for those small moments and hang on to them as best you can sweets.
You have been an absolute legend to so many people on here. Myself included.
Luv ya. xoxoxo