@arpie It's very emotional going through all the anniversaries as it brings back so many memories...most of which are bad!! So good that you are thinking positive about the year ahead & so you should be!! One thing we should all get out of this, is how strong we can be, even though at times we dont think we are. When you look back on the last year, you should feel proud of how you have got through & the strength you have found within yourself. Seeing the surgeon in a couple of weeks should answer more questions for you so start writing your list!! happy 2019!! xx