Yeah me too @Sister
@kmakm .I actually found the second one worse. The first one was so close to the end of my treatment (4 months) that I really didn't contemplate that their might be anything wrong at that stage. It was still nerve wracking but I though I would have to be bloody unlucky to find anything then.
It's odd. I used to dream a lot before this and could usually remember what I had dreamt about. Some nasty ones between diagnosis and getting poisened but since chemo I hardly ever remember dreaming anything. Probably because I was awake half the freakin night for such a long time so maybe no time to dream Hehehe.