Anniversary
Today is the first anniversary of my mammogram. I was pretty stony faced. Nine months before my sister had died from breast cancer and I was resentful of the inefficiency at the front desk, the pink p...
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Thanks @SoldierCrab sounds interesting indeed.
I had to get used to going back to those places quickly,..... or change jobs.
I work in the ward where I was after surgery, I look after out expected bookings for theatre and help bed allocate for all the breast surgeries (as well as the others).
I help the breast care nurses gather their charts for MDT meetings, I file the hisopathology reports. Every where I look there is paperwork for this cancer, that cancer, metastatic disease, palliative care...........etc etc etc.
I collect charts etc from the oncology ward and see all the people waiting for their treatment. I see the fear and sadness in the eyes of the new people having their first appointment not really believing they are there. Used to give me cold chills going in there.
I remember, I can feel it. The first few months were rather difficult. I just felt sad and sick writing up the bookings which I had been doing for the past 8 years. There was a whole new meaning and feeling to it. I had to really shut down, turn to ice and go on auto pilot for a while. I am fine with it now and only get the heebie-jeebies occasionally.
On a positive. It has made me a lot more empathetic. I will toddle up and down the hall to waiting family members to keep them updated on what is going on with their loved one in surgery, how long before they get back to the ward etc. Sometimes the BCN's will get me to have a chat with a patient that might be really upset. You know how it helps to talk to someone who has been there, so that makes me feel good if I can help. I get called on regularly to explain the cold cap procedure, which normally ends up in a general breast cancer/chemo chat i have met some lovely people doing that and it makes me feel a bit useful.
Hugs to all.
xoxoxo
I had to get used to going back to those places quickly,..... or change jobs.
I work in the ward where I was after surgery, I look after out expected bookings for theatre and help bed allocate for all the breast surgeries (as well as the others).
I help the breast care nurses gather their charts for MDT meetings, I file the hisopathology reports. Every where I look there is paperwork for this cancer, that cancer, metastatic disease, palliative care...........etc etc etc.
I collect charts etc from the oncology ward and see all the people waiting for their treatment. I see the fear and sadness in the eyes of the new people having their first appointment not really believing they are there. Used to give me cold chills going in there.
I remember, I can feel it. The first few months were rather difficult. I just felt sad and sick writing up the bookings which I had been doing for the past 8 years. There was a whole new meaning and feeling to it. I had to really shut down, turn to ice and go on auto pilot for a while. I am fine with it now and only get the heebie-jeebies occasionally.
On a positive. It has made me a lot more empathetic. I will toddle up and down the hall to waiting family members to keep them updated on what is going on with their loved one in surgery, how long before they get back to the ward etc. Sometimes the BCN's will get me to have a chat with a patient that might be really upset. You know how it helps to talk to someone who has been there, so that makes me feel good if I can help. I get called on regularly to explain the cold cap procedure, which normally ends up in a general breast cancer/chemo chat i have met some lovely people doing that and it makes me feel a bit useful.
Hugs to all.
xoxoxo