@Mandermartini What a rough time you have had. After all you have been through surgery/treatment wise, I can only imagine how devastated & scared you were to hear the cancer had returned.
Its something we all dread & no matter how many stats, percentages & studies we read about, it is a game of chance & we all play the odds! You have been dealt a bad hand but try to focus on what you do know & try not to think ahead of what may happen. Easier said than done but stress will fuel cancer so you need to try to not worry about what may not even happen. Deep breaths & we are all here for you. Love & strength xx