I am So sorry to see you having to join us @Oma1 xx You will still be in shock too, for sure. :(
Please Consider joining the private Reconstruction Group, where you can ask any question & see photos (before & after) of various types of reconstruction. Click on this link and hit 'join'
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/group/1-choosing-breast-reconstructionYou may also like to listen to the Charlotte Tottman on "Breast Cancer - what you don't know until you do." She is a specialist Breast Counsellor who was diagnosed 6-7 years ago & had a double mastectomy, choosing to remain flat. You can read a bit about her below, too. Her own reaction to her diagnosis was different to what she thought it would be - her podcasts are very easy to listen to & covers pretty well every emotion that all of us have felt xx
http://www.drcharlottetottman.com.au/my-podcast.htmlTake lots of deep breaths & just take one day at a time xx. Try & keep busy doing stuff you love doing as you prepare for the next surgery. Stay away from Dr Google ... as a lot of the info on there is out of date & often doesn't relate to your own diagnosis. And it will just 'do your mind in'. This diagnosis mucks with your brain even more than your body, I reckon. :(
Take care & all the best