Hey @Becsta I've been getting paid to write for years. Not sexy, controversial, popular stuff--annual reports, quarterly reports and more bloody reports interspersed with the odd 'how to' or media release.
This is a good place to write about things that matter, personally. Depending on the day, the year and what else is going on, some people will read your stuff. Or not. Sometimes they will comment, sometimes they won't. After a while you develop your own style which makes it easier to express yourself in a way that feels right for you. Your own voice.
So much of your poem strikes a chord with me. That feeling of disbelief and becoming 'the other me'. Identifying with others while trying to distance yourself. Well done. Mxx