Johjoh
11 years agoMember
Scared & feeling down
Today I had my 3rd chemo (Docetaxel & Cyclophosphamide). I was on a high thinking after this I only have 1 more treatment to go. Everything went good but during my chemo treatment they were taking my bloods. I asked the nurse why and she told me that they needed to check my potassium level again because they were high. Am I suppost to be worried?
Anyway I got home after chemo and feeling very tired, eyes are heavy, and my legs feel stiff as if they are full of fluid. After this chemo I'm feeling the worst I've ever felt during my chemo treatments. So I'm thinking maybe the more treatments you have the worst you feel after each one. Please correct me if I'm wrong.
Now I'm feeling so down, thinking negetive thought and wondering what this treatment is doing to my body. If I'm going to get a severe side effect which will effect me for life. I'm so scared of having a reoccurrence of breast cancer because I don't ever want to have chemo again. I'm trying to decide whether I should have a double masectomy with reconstruction straight away or if I could have it after chemo. I could go on and on all night with the questions I have. All I want to is my health back but
I feel that has been taken away from me.
I usually deal with things as they come. I'm just having a bad evening. I'm hoping tomorrow I'll be in a better frame of mind and being my positve self again.
I do apologise in advance for my negetive thoughts but I need to vent, it just seems to help.