Diary of a DIEP flap bilateral reconstruction

Hello I have just been diagnosed with invasive ductal carcinoma and DCIS in my right breast and micro calcification in my left breast which came back benign. I have done a lot of reading and have decided to have a bilateral mastecomy. I feel like the surgeon turned up his nose when I suggested this. I spoke to my GP and discussed it and he agreed with my reasons for wanting both off. I feel like people are thinking I am going a bit drastic. So have decided to have diep reconstruction. Saw plastic surgeon today and I felt like she was swaying me to only do my right breast. She said it will be 14 hour surgery including the mastecomy. The risks are higher doing both. I felt like it was scare tactics. I walked out and said to my husband I want both done because no one can guarantee cancer won't grow in my left breast and I don't want to worry about it. I know the recovery s longer but the emotional side to me I am sure woud be the same if I only had one done. I am so confused!!!! No one seems to understand how I actually feel. When you are told you have cancer you just want it gone at what ever cost.