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A little hurdle
Morning ladies
It's been a rough week. Started great with a chat to the plastic surgeon about my reconstruction and no worries about doing this after radiation. Then chemo, but anaemic so also followed up the next day with a blood transfusion. I also had this pesky little lesion growing on my Left breast (mastectomy side) which appeared after my first chemo and initially was put down to a skin reaction, then some dodgy post op skin with poor blood supply but the sucker started to grow. So Thursday brings a biopsy and still hopeful words from my surgeon.
Last night though, my surgeon is in my living room telling me the lesion is cancerous and seems to be the same type as that taken out. Why it is growing while I am having chemo we do not know - it could mean chemo is not working and cancer has also spread elsewhere. So today I am off to Peter Mac for a PET scan to see if it is showing signs of being anywhere else.
I am sitting here, not having slept more than about an hour all night, waiting for them to phone me with a time for the scan.
There are too many ifs, buts and maybes dependent upon today's results (God I hope they can fit me in today - waiting the weekend would be torture) but at the very least it is more surgery and a likely change to my treatment. Radiation is a definite now and there are all sorts of chemo options.
I feel like I've been flattened by a truck - and the taxotere hasn't even hit me yet - that pleasure awaits me this weekend. For the first time in this "journey" (a word I have been reluctant to use) I am really frightened but I am trying to stay focused on one step at a time and not let myself wander off too much into the what ifs.
Please say a little prayer if you do or if you have any spare send a little positive energy my way today - every little bit helps.
Amanda xx
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my thoughts are with you
my thoughts are with you
I shed a tear for you as I read of your setback. Stay positive....keeping my fingers and toes crossed that the scans are all clear and the lesion is local.... ((hugs)) to you
Take Care
Cheryl
Oh Amanda my heart goes out to you.
I have just read your blog lovely lady.
I can only imagine how you are feeling right now.
So sorry you now have something else to cope with!
Praying for and thinking about you for sure!!
I really hope you get seen today and at least know where you are at.
You have been a wonderful source of support and encouragement to many on this network and we are very much behind you and here for you too!!
Deep breaths and hold on tight x
Take care
Debsxx
Oh Amanda my heart goes out to you.
I have just read your blog lovely lady.
I can only imagine how you are feeling right now.
So sorry you now have something else to cope with!
Praying for and thinking about you for sure!!
I really hope you get seen today and at least know where you are at.
You have been a wonderful source of support and encouragement to many on this network and we are very much behind you and here for you too!!
Deep breaths and hold on tight x
Take care
Debsxx
Amanda
Lots of hugs, prayers and thoughts are headed your way.
You have been a rock of support on this network and so now take some of that energy for yourself.
Would telling them they'd have to deal with a Tasmanian if they don't get you a scan today help????
Take care, Dette xxxx
Amanda
Lots of hugs, prayers and thoughts are headed your way.
You have been a rock of support on this network and so now take some of that energy for yourself.
Would telling them they'd have to deal with a Tasmanian if they don't get you a scan today help????
Take care, Dette xxxx
Sending you all my energy & positive thoughts... Hope u get in today! Will pray for you also....
Sending you all my energy & positive thoughts... Hope u get in today! Will pray for you also....
Dear Amanda,
After wiping away the many tears from reading what you are going thru, I sit here wondering what words I can offer to help heal, comfort and support you.
As you say it is a journey, we are all here in spirit with you.
I send you strength and hope and courage - a hug filled with white healing light to support you and keep you positive.
