That was another week

NaturalBel
NaturalBel Member Posts: 542 ✭
edited June 2014 in Day to day

As I manage to make my way through one week after another, I pop into BCNA, to say hi to a few people and have flash backs of last year.

 Having been recently asked "Did having Breast Cancer change you?"  I replied "I dont think so, perhaps a little less superficial."  There is definatley a life before Cancer and one after whether we notice/recognide it or not.  How can you ever just go back to who you once were.  I am a lot less carefree, and optimistic I think, and yet each day we swing between "soldier" mode and "I wish I could turn back time".  

I am still optimistic about finishing my study, and hope one day I can have a full time job again.  ( a lack of full time work available in Launceston).  I am still growing my hair and most of all I hope like hell I dont get cancer back.  I manage to put that out of my mind and focus on day to day stuff.  

One day at a time, that is all I do!

Wishing you all a healthier life.

X Bel

 

 

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  • mgndam1603
    mgndam1603 Member Posts: 753 ✭
    edited March 2015

    I know having cancer changed me, I used to feel very strongly about my work and put in loads of hours, these days I am very different. I work standard hours unless travelling these days.

    We also bought a holiday shack and try to get away as many weekends as possible, in the past I would have been working on chores at home.

    I too worry from time to time about getting cancer back, on the weekend Michael mentioned moving permanently to Phillip Island and my response, no there is no hospital on the Island. Funny I don't activily think about these things but its tucked away in my mind somewhere.

    Still growning my hair too and I still have curls, amazing.

    Donna

  • mgndam1603
    mgndam1603 Member Posts: 753 ✭
    edited March 2015

    I know having cancer changed me, I used to feel very strongly about my work and put in loads of hours, these days I am very different. I work standard hours unless travelling these days.

    We also bought a holiday shack and try to get away as many weekends as possible, in the past I would have been working on chores at home.

    I too worry from time to time about getting cancer back, on the weekend Michael mentioned moving permanently to Phillip Island and my response, no there is no hospital on the Island. Funny I don't activily think about these things but its tucked away in my mind somewhere.

    Still growning my hair too and I still have curls, amazing.

    Donna

  • [Deleted User]
    [Deleted User] Posts: 0 ✭
    edited March 2015

    Hi Bel, It's great to see you pop back online and say hi every now and again. I hope though your flashbacks of last year that you can remember how hard it was and how you continue to move further away from the tough times. x Like Mandy - she is 10 years on and still has some moments - but there are more good than bad :-) Big hugs. x

  • [Deleted User]
    [Deleted User] Posts: 0 ✭
    edited March 2015

    Hi Bel, It's great to see you pop back online and say hi every now and again. I hope though your flashbacks of last year that you can remember how hard it was and how you continue to move further away from the tough times. x Like Mandy - she is 10 years on and still has some moments - but there are more good than bad :-) Big hugs. x

  • Deanne
    Deanne Member Posts: 2,163 ✭
    edited March 2015
    It's a hard thing to put into words, how having cancer may have changed us. Like everything it's probably different for different people but I agree that it definitely does have an affect.

    I think we all worry about the possibility of it coming back but hopefully this does not rule our lives. I think for me, I'm a bit like Donna. My priorities have changed and rather than working too hard or taking on more 'projects' I just want to slow down and feel satisfied and appreciate what I already have. Time with my husband, family and friends is now my main aim. I also spend time doing all that I can to stay healthy. It's noticing what I have to be happy and content about rather than thinking something else is needed to make me happy.

    Hope you achieve your goals with study and full-time work. Keep in touch, it's great to hear from people who are further down the track. Deanne xxx
  • Christine Marie
    Christine Marie Member Posts: 180 ✭
    edited March 2015
    Cancer hasn't changed me...but it has certainly changed the way I think & do things & has made me appreciate the little things in life more, instead of taken them for granted....
    I believe you will get through your studies & one day have that full time job:) they say we reap what we sow... Take care Bel:)
    Christine:) xox

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