and now it's more than a year

magicmum
magicmum Member Posts: 285 ✭
edited September 2013 in Day to day

I can't believe I'm nearly 18 months out. Sometimes it feels like yesterday, and other times like years ago.

Arimidex every day - just causes my joints to ache and I am still incredibly tired. I think that's Arimidex too, must be. I am otherwise really well. My gut, which had been problematic for a long time, has finally settled back to normal. Phewww !!

I am now at the stage of wondering, worrying, if it will come back. I try to limit the dark thoughts as much as possible. My friends tell me I've been so positive the whole time, little do they know ! At least it looks as though I am.

I've had 2 haircuts since it grew back - it's still a bit baby fuzz but I have gone back to the colouring like before. I just coudln't do the grey, nearly white. I could see my mum in myself and I just wasn;t ready to be old.

Anyway, that's it really. Moving forward,.

much love to all on the road, may your path be a smooth one.

magicmum

 

 

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  • susie_Q
    susie_Q Member Posts: 43 ✭
    edited March 2015

    Hi Magicmum, so pleased to read that you are cruising along nicely, except for a few speed humps every now and again. I too am 18 months down the track from diagnosis and still have achey bones and get quite tired, just par for the course I think, I am not any any medications now. Finished Herceptin in May.Sometimes still get funny tingles in my head........must be the grey hair growing back, and mine is very grey, but I love it. I have had just about every body part checked this year, one little change and my Doc has it checked, has been very thorough. Colonoscopy today...good news all is well. Just have to have my infuser port removed but think I will leave it unbtil my surgeon visit next Feb. Have had enough of hospitals just now.

    Yes agree we are positive on the outside, but only us who have travelled the journey know differently..... as part of the healing we need to let ourselves grieve from time to time and of course we show that we are the strong ones in these situations, being "there" for our family and friends.

    I wish you well for a continued smooth ride.

    Susie Q

  • Mich x
    Mich x Member Posts: 1,530 ✭
    edited March 2015

    Hey magicmum

    I am glad you are doing well and looking onwards and upwards, good on you.  

    How do you work out your 18 months?  I work my time from diagnosis and I am about 22 months.

    I know what you mean about putting on the brave face but luckily they can't see your tummy squirming and your head spinning from the fear of the unknown.  Only people who have ventured down the BC path or for that matter any cancer path lives with the fear of recurrence.  It is easy to say forget about it and just get on with it.

    I can say I have pretty much had every possible test done to me this year so far and I am happy to say I am confident I am cancer free at this moment.  Next week, next month, next year who knows but I celebrate every day at present that I am cancer free until or if I am ever told different.  I kicked its butt and so did you so with have to run with that for now.

    Keep looking onwards and upwards every day and I hope you continue on this wonderful road you are on.

    Stay happy, healthy and cancer free luvly. 

    PS:  How about an update pic with your new hair to celebrate.

    Lots of love today, tomorrow and always, Mich xoxoxo

  • adean
    adean Member Posts: 1,036 ✭
    edited March 2015
    Great to see you doing ok, you were one of the First Ladies who blogged me my first night if diagnosis 15months ago thank you. Your words and acknowledgment helped me, and now I'm doing the same . All the best and up and up for you regards adean
  • chipmunk
    chipmunk Member Posts: 280 ✭
    edited March 2015
    Hi sweetness
    Let the good times roll !!
    Me,to diagnosed last March 2012, have been cancer free
    Wishing you all the very best. Live life like there is no tomorrow.
    We all blogged around the same time, helping each other through those chemo and radiation days.
    But it's great to hear, we are all at the other end now.
    Keep blogging.
    Luv as always Julie xx
  • adean
    adean Member Posts: 1,036 ✭
    edited March 2015
    Hi so great to see you ,how scary is it that where the time has gone that we were at the beginning of a big hole but we've come out at the end regards adean
  • chipmunk
    chipmunk Member Posts: 280 ✭
    edited March 2015
    Hope you are well.
    Yes, time has just flown.
    It's nice to know that we have all achieved so much.
    Sometimes it's like a blur.... That I thought while going through chemo and radiation - when will this end.
    And now, all done and dusted, and having the 6 monthly check ups.
    Wishing you health and happiness always.
    Luv Julie xx
  • chipmunk
    chipmunk Member Posts: 280 ✭
    edited March 2015
    Hope you are well.
    Yes, time has just flown.
    It's nice to know that we have all achieved so much.
    Sometimes it's like a blur.... That I thought while going through chemo and radiation - when will this end.
    And now, all done and dusted, and having the 6 monthly check ups.
    Wishing you health and happiness always.
    Luv Julie xx
  • magicmum
    magicmum Member Posts: 285 ✭
    edited March 2015

    I keep meaning to get a new pic. My h takes them best so I'll do that this week. It's quiet at work so that's good.

    I work it out from diganosis. I guess you could from surgery/start treatment/end treatment, but the diagnosis seems the easiest.

    I seem to be having a lot of navel gazing at the mo - my d is expecting her child, my first grandchild, in Nov and I spose I just want to know I'll see it gro wup. My second son and his gorgeous wife are thinking about babies maybe in a year - and I want to be there for them too. I think that's why I'm wondering again, afraid again. Oh well.

    They keep finding new treatments and researchers are working all the time, so maybe if we do get it again in the future,  they'll have a cure !

    Keep on keeping on my friends

    magicmum

     

  • susie_Q
    susie_Q Member Posts: 43 ✭
    edited March 2015

    Hi Magicmum, and soon to be magicgran/nan. What a wonderful world this new bub will bring you, there is nothing so beautiful as being a Nan, the feelings are so hard to explain, you will love it. I am lucky enough to have 12 grandies and 1 great grandaughter who is nearly 9 months old and just gorgeous. The love you feel for them is so heart wrenching it hurts sometimes. I have just witnessed 2 of my grandsons (14 and 17) on stage in their first production, they were teriffic of course and a very proud Nan wanting to shout it to the world that "Hey they belong to me"..I didn"t of course, but felt like it.

    I am pretty sure we will all be ok if we keep on keeping on with our positive thinking and confidence and having everything checked as soon as something is different. All the best and congratulations to all on the forthcoming arrival.

    Susie Q   

     

  • Pollyanne58
    Pollyanne58 Member Posts: 30 ✭
    edited March 2015

    Magicmum, I too am 18 mths into recovery. Mine is similar story, I have aches and pains in my legs, arms hands and arches of feet, but nothing that is too much once I get mobile, my pains seem to be doing a rotation of my body which is strange! First right knee, then left, now knees almost better and my left arm is killing me! Hard to even lift very light objects. Still while it is only one at a time I am happy. Doesn't stop my golf or enjoyment so  that is main thing. Also managing to keep the weight off which I had been told was a very unwanted side effect  of medication. I have a couple of friends who because of my diagnosis went and got themselves checked out and found they too had early cancer  so they were lucky and some good has come from my illness. Glad to hear about all the Ladies out there who are doing so well and have been given a second chance. Xx

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