Today is a shitty day!
Monday 16 April 2012
Today I having a shitter of day!
Woke up today feeling great, postive, ready to take on the day!! But slowly and surely, it has become shittier and shittier.
Everything is overhelming me: the messiness that my house is in, my laundry pile, the mess that Zoe keeps making, the moldy pototos that I found in the bottom of my pantry, my lack of sleep, the fact that I have to get Zoe into the shower with me at some stage and wash her bird nest hair while she screams bloody murder, that I'm waiting to find out about more tests that need to be done, that I have my appointment on Thursday to find out about my chemo, that I feel reasonably fine except my shitty titty and armpit hurt and can't lift much and that hinders my going back to work as really what in a supermarket doesnt require 2 arms, the messiness of my house (yes, I already wrote that, but it is that bad) and I just feel fed up!!!!
I really just want to feel calm and confident and motivated. Thats all!!!
Tomorrow, Wednesday and everyday after that will be different, better!
BUT....................
As I said, Today is a bad day!!!