Moving forward and feeling better
After getting the call from surgeon on Wed to say they didn't get everything out last week and falling to pieces, we had my surgeon appointment yesterday and can't believe how much better I am feeling today. Not knowing what is going on is just the worst! When I know what's going on and what can be done, I am superwoman! Waiting for results and appointments, I'm a basket case!
So on Wednesday, it's back to hospital for double mastectomy and level 2 lymph node clearance. Went in to surgery knowing there was 3 lumps (1 I felt and 2 small ones found in scans), biggest one supposed to be 15mm. Surgeon thought she got them all and believed there was nothing in the sentinel node. Pathology showed very different - 2x small Stage 1 lumps, 2x stage 2 lumps (one 28mm) and one 47mm DCIS - where the hell was that hiding!! No-one was expecting that!! Still wondering if it was a typo! Surgeon says 1 in 5 women get back results like this - tumors that don't appear on any scans, etc, even she didn't know it was there when she took it out!! Anyone else had anything like this??? And 10mm was in Sentinel node too so more work needed there too. Good margins on all though.
So not messing around this time, I thought I'd have double mast. the first time around and decided not to, this time nothing is changing my mind - it's both off. I'm flat chested anyway, not like I'll notice much!! After that, chemo, possibly radiation, whatever else they throw at me, then reconstruction once I'm better. A new me before I know it! A bit of crap to go through to last another 50 years!
Thanks for all the messages for support, can't believe how much it helps. Sorry I've not commented on anyone else yet, focusing on me and my family, but knowing there is this support online is wonderful.
much love and hugs to all the amazing women (and men) out there
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