Birthday
So it's my birthday in a couple of weeks and I will be 38. Four and a half years ago when I was diagnosed with cancer I started two drugs which were for 5 years each. So my treatment will finish when I am 38. And I'm going to be 38 very soon. It freaks me out for some reason. I think it is because back then when I was newly diagnosed the twin ideas of one day finishing my 5 years of treatment and of me one day being 38 seemed impossibly far in the future. So it's somehow scary that those things are actually going to happen.
Of course, there is also the complication that some studies suggest Tamoxifen for 10 years is better than 5 years so maybe the treatment won't even finish when I'm 38. When I asked about this before the doctor said we'd discuss it closer to the 5 years being up.
It is scary to think of treatment being over soon and it is also scary/annoying to think of it going for another 5 years.