Not good. You need to ask your current oncologist for all your paperwork, test results etc. They are yours. No need to be to charming - give him/her a date for provision of same or advise you will seek legal advice. A threat costs you very little! Once you get them, the next step is to find a new specialist who is a lot better aligned to your well being and being informed. As @zoffiel says, that may not be easy but worthwhile. Your side effects may have occurred in any event - I have terrific medicos and still have Taxol induced damage in my feet - but I was always informed, able to discuss options and have some sense of control. Without that, it's easy to feel that you have been handled rather than treated. Best wishes.