Hi @Kelkel89,
You are young and I’m so sorry you have to go through this big surgery. I had a mastectomy 11yrs ago and I wear a prosthesis in a bra. I don’t like it but I’m used to it and you’d never know once I’m dressed. The surgery itself is not too painful but the underarm cut is and you need to keep up the exercises you are given. You’ll probably have a drain in that you’ll drag around with you. I felt as weak as a kitten the next day after surgery and so I mostly stayed in bed and just had a wash basin/bird bath. I couldn’t face a shower with drips,drains and dressings.And that’s ok.If you have a breast care nurse,ask her if she can give you a special small moon shaped cushion which comforts under the arm and chest- especially with the car seatbelt.When I first looked at my scar, surprisingly I wasn’t too shocked. I think it’s like going into battle- you brave up to face it and later you’ll probably sit back and process it all. Just get through the surgery and the recovery- that’s enough to deal with for now.It’s a high price we pay in exchange for our life but you can do this.We’ll be here to help you navigate when you leave hospital.Best wishes and big hug.xx