Hello @Kelkel89,
lots of great advice from the ladies above. So sorry you find yourself in this situation. Small steps darl. Not too much thinking into the future. Focus on now as much as possible.
You mentioned they can’t do recon due to the fact you’ll need radiation. However, can’t they put an expander in at the time of the mastectomy? Expanders are great for radiation, and after you’ve healed from that about 6-12 months later, you can do your recon. It’ll also give you time to think about recon options, and you won’t be mono-boobed. It’s still an emotional shock, but not as bad as being completely flat on one side I imagine. This suggestion is only for you, as some women don’t have a problem with being flat. It’s because it has come as a bit of a shock for you.
I had a skin and nipple sparing DMX last year in April, and expanders were put in at the same time. I then had radiation in July. Now I’m waiting to heal as much as possible before I have them exchanged for implants. No one knows I’ve had any surgery done.
Try to calm yourself and think about these options carefully. Good luck, I hope you feel better about it 🍀♥️