I feel for you MissJoJo and wish you all the best for your surgery tomorrow.
Four years ago I was facing losing a breast after the original lumpectomy didn't achieve clear margins. I was totally devastated and felt sad for quite some time as although my breasts didn't define me, they were an important part of my emotional and sexual makeup and I needed to grieve for that loss and the changes my body was going through. Those days and weeks around those initial surgeries were tough (and I wasn't battling an infection), but ultimately the mastectomy saved my life, getting rid of a far more extensive tumour than I was first diagnosed with and uncovering two further tumours not visible from the imaging and I guess this was the thing I needed to keep reminding myself of throughout that time - that the mastectomy was necessary so that I could continue to be here. I'm now two years on from reconstruction and I've had to adjust to lots of physical and emotional changes over that time but I have and I'm sure you will do too. Hugs, Jane xx