@Caz1 if I could have had mastectomies and immediate recon I maybe would have but because of disease being missed on scans, and extra surgery and the need for immediate chemo recon was going to be something down the track. As time has gone on I have just felt I have had enough. My surgeon tells me if I change my mind I can still get it done but I know I won’t. I am content with how my chest looks - it’s very neat and flat ( I struggled to fill an A cup before) and I just don’t want to put my body through anything else that’s not strictly necessary.
When I first got cancer, and for months during chemo, I didn’t want to stand out - I wore a wig, padded my missing breast area and tried to not look any different. Now, I have accepted that I have been through a trauma to mind and body and I no longer feel the need to hide it. This is me. Battered and bruised with body parts missing, always braced for the next blow of bad news.
And as a side note - I hated my drains with my first two surgeries. This one I have now is a breeze. I am sick of carting it around and sleeping with it but it’s not sore or causing me any problems. Hoping it goes out tomorrow - day 5. It’s all getting itchy.
