I was brave through the lumpectomy too, hon, but there have been a few times since that I couldn't help crying, mainly over painful procedures. I finally realised during my first chemo last Monday that I need to tell the other person involved (in that case a nurse who dug around in my arm looking for a vein) not to be upset if I cry, it's just my way of releasing tension and not a reflection on her. It's hard trying to be brave to save someone else the discomfort of seeing you break down, I think it adds enormous stress when you're already at the breaking point. I think now's the time to give yourself that release when you need it. I hope your port procedure went well! Hugs, I hate that you're going through this but you're not alone!
