Hi ladies, I can understand exactly what you are saying. I too felt that maybe I shouldn't be reconstructing, that maybe it was frivolous or a waste of money, as really I shoukd just be thankful that my cancer appears to be gone, blah blah and blah. Yes, we had no choices about the first op, so we just do what we need to do. Once there is a choice though, it becomes harder i took months to decide, but I am so glad that I did decide to go ahead with it. I knew the prophylactic mastectomy was the right way to go as soon as I had the second scare with the lump that was found on my check up ultrasound. The truth is, I just have trouble with decisions, all decisions. It has taken me 9 months to arrange a bathroom renovation, and forever to choose
anything. I am always worried that my choice will
be the wrong choice. My husband on the other hand makes decisions easily, and if they are wrong, he deals with them. If new boobs will make you feel better, then you should go with them, and be happy. You know, what an anaesthetic is like, and how it affects you, so that scarey bit is a known now. Even when I had to go back to theatre to have my blood clot drained, I surprises myself by not blaming myself for going ahead with this procedure. Now that everything is healed, this prophylactic side that had the blood clot looks really good, and even better than the other side. Love Chris xx