Hi Sam , thanks for your thoughts I just love reading what other women in similar situation are thinking. I have to have a lat lorsi dru to the rays. Unfortunately I was asking to have ultrasounds for quite a few yrs as I felt there was something off. The machines didn't pick it up as it was in situ and they couldn't see it. Even up till my diagnosis they were saying 98% sure it was no. When I was in my 20's and 30's I used to say to my girlfriends, if they ever find anything I'm getting them cut off!!! Never really believing it would come to this.i know if I can go through with it I will be able to " take a breath" I'm sure u know what I mean. It will also give me the opportunity when my kids a much older, to tell them that I done every I possibly could to make sure it wasn't coming back. Love kel xxxxxx