Thank you hazel, and you certainly hit the nail on the head " what the hell has happened" yeah poked and prodded. Tests every second day. Surgery, now the wait people have said this can be the worst time, just waiting. I am a reasonably positive person and like to keep this attitude, but just sometimes, it feels so unpositive.
I appreciate your response to my post. And thank you for the support. I feel I will need more support along the way. And hope to provide support to others along the way.
Juli xx