I enjoyed reading your posts and can so, so relate to the feelings. At times I thought I was just turning into an emotional ratbag. It all feels so unreal. I too have a grade 2 cancer and I am to start the 6 weeks of radium treatment Monday morning. I only have to drive about 10mins as they have the service on the Sunshine Coast close to where I live. One good thing about a not so good experience.
However the oncologist picked up a heart problem I didn't know I had so now I have to deal with this and my tumour was close to the chest wall. I really am past thinking about it all.
It is good to know other are feeling the same as myself. All the best, I am sure we will make it through this next stage.
Margaret