New diagnosis

You are not alone! When I was told I had breast cancer I didn't really react either. I didn't cry, I didn't really feel anything, I just went quiet. I went to see my breast surgeon, breast nurses, & specialists with my hubby in tow and they would be talking to me, asking me questions and I was answering and agreeing with them. Even the breast nurse would ask how I was feeling and I'll be saying I'm fine. My attitude was they know what's best so I just went along with everything and left it up to my hubby to ask questions. There was so much information that I was trying to process from what the doctors were saying that only thing that was going through my mind was... "Is this for real"? The day I decided to let my work know my situation (2 weeks later after being diagnosed) I remember driving to work, I was feeling agitated and a bundle of nerves, I cried in the car all the way to work. As soon as I got to work (made sure I stopped crying and pretended I was ok) I walked into the managers office burst into tears again and told her I had breast cancer. That day was the day it hit me that I had breast cancer and I was agitated, upset, and a bundle of nerves because I had no choice but to accept it. My husband was the one who told family members about my diagnosis but with my work it was up to me to tell them. It was the first time I had to tell someone that I had breast cancer. Reality hit me hard! After that I accepted it and started to deal with it and now I try to keep positive and strong. We all deal with it in our own way and I'm sure you will feel something soon and when you do you need to let it out. I wish you all the best and take care! ?? Joh