"Its up to you!!! "
I am soooo tired of hearing "Its up to you!" I turn to the brains trust here to give me constructive advice about a problem that I have to ( or want to is nearer the truth) address. I have been th...
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Dear ladies and self. Last time I posted I was in turmoil as to what to do re right breast.....to remove or not to remove..that was the question (sorry :D ) So I saw my surgeon in May 2019. I expressed my concerns but still wasn't sure...He said once again, the concern was all in my head, I was clear with expectation of no further problems. So I held back my decision and made an appointment for February this year to see him again.
When I was first diagnosed I was to have a lumpectomy (May18) ...but he didn't manage to take enough around it to make it a clear extraction...I know there is proper terminology but my brain doesn't want to work! So that is when I said lets go Radical ...take it away ..begone !! When pathology came back my doctor said...good thing we did that ..there was another small mass that wasn't seen on U/S or mammogram. Oh yay!! So other than horror of mammogram THAT little snippet has played on my mind for nearly 2 years..every waking moment! I had a mammogram on right last year ...all clear. Ok but that piece of information wouldn't leave my head. I had already been through 2 lumpectomies on right, one positive, one negative but i still couldn't make a definitive decision.
Until....I was talking to a friend about her experiences, comparing notes as one does and she said....oh I wonder if that is what happened to me, a missed mass not seen on any pictures. Why is that ? I ask. "Oh I have metastasis'. I also was give all clear, no further expected problems. " Read Catalyst moment!!
I came home and told my husband my mind is made up...I'm tired of thinking, worrying, stressing about what may or may not happen.
So I am today, 11 days post-op. Prophylactic (R) Mastectomy. Yes!! I told surgeon you are allowed to say when pathology results are in "I told you so!! " and the B did..lol But I have NOT thought about anything negative for nearly 2 weeks. I cried in Hospital and Nurses were concerned ...are you sad for decision, in pain etc?? No No No ...I cry because about 5 tonnes has been lifted from my shoulders...look they aren't up around my ears...I'm relaxed!!! Yes I still have a drain :( yes I cant throw my arms around too much at the moment but that's a temporary physical problem, yes I will now have to got get another prosthesis but I don't have to wear them all the time AND I will be evenly hung instead of one side perky and the other not quite there!! :) I will admit this Coronavirus is on my mind in my immuno suppressed post operative state, but I'm at home taking all the advised precautions (except I don't have 6 months supply of TP !! LOL )
Thank you to those who are listening, I needed to get this off my chest as sort of final closure. My wishes for good health and happiness go to you <3 <3 <3
When I was first diagnosed I was to have a lumpectomy (May18) ...but he didn't manage to take enough around it to make it a clear extraction...I know there is proper terminology but my brain doesn't want to work! So that is when I said lets go Radical ...take it away ..begone !! When pathology came back my doctor said...good thing we did that ..there was another small mass that wasn't seen on U/S or mammogram. Oh yay!! So other than horror of mammogram THAT little snippet has played on my mind for nearly 2 years..every waking moment! I had a mammogram on right last year ...all clear. Ok but that piece of information wouldn't leave my head. I had already been through 2 lumpectomies on right, one positive, one negative but i still couldn't make a definitive decision.
Until....I was talking to a friend about her experiences, comparing notes as one does and she said....oh I wonder if that is what happened to me, a missed mass not seen on any pictures. Why is that ? I ask. "Oh I have metastasis'. I also was give all clear, no further expected problems. " Read Catalyst moment!!
I came home and told my husband my mind is made up...I'm tired of thinking, worrying, stressing about what may or may not happen.
So I am today, 11 days post-op. Prophylactic (R) Mastectomy. Yes!! I told surgeon you are allowed to say when pathology results are in "I told you so!! " and the B did..lol But I have NOT thought about anything negative for nearly 2 weeks. I cried in Hospital and Nurses were concerned ...are you sad for decision, in pain etc?? No No No ...I cry because about 5 tonnes has been lifted from my shoulders...look they aren't up around my ears...I'm relaxed!!! Yes I still have a drain :( yes I cant throw my arms around too much at the moment but that's a temporary physical problem, yes I will now have to got get another prosthesis but I don't have to wear them all the time AND I will be evenly hung instead of one side perky and the other not quite there!! :) I will admit this Coronavirus is on my mind in my immuno suppressed post operative state, but I'm at home taking all the advised precautions (except I don't have 6 months supply of TP !! LOL )
Thank you to those who are listening, I needed to get this off my chest as sort of final closure. My wishes for good health and happiness go to you <3 <3 <3